Since the baby was born, my awareness of self and horse has greatly improved. I have become more balanced both mentally and physically. My balance has become more natural and I do not think of it any longer. It is no longer a set of tasks when I ride. I simply ride.
During the summer, I started riding Carter bareback close to the house. I was rather nervous about it but the very last time I rode in this manner, I greatly enjoyed it and wanted to break into a trot. It had not been long since I gave birth so I had lost some of my confidence and was not quite ready to saddle up and head off too far. But I began to do so a little each weekend. Riding with my sister-in-law was tremendously helpful for having a riding buddy allowed me to feel more secure. I had not realized how lonely I have been all these years on Carter’s back riding by myself.
Carter’s always been a bit of a spooky horse and years early on I had played many games with him to overcome these things. Unfortunately, Arabians tend to have a bit of spookiness about them and I cannot control the birds, squirrels, and other creatures in the nearby forest much less the strange smells from afar. But I have become rather fearless of his sidestepping-get-ready-to-run-for-your-life behavior. He actually has never left me, but simply jumps and spins. It has become rather pleasant now as we relearn the trails, the obstacles, and the use of aids.
My body has become like jelly and my eyes have softened. I breath more correctly, visualizing my center. I feel more connected with my horse and it appears as though he trusts me more than ever.
We have more work to do. I look forward to the spring.